11 happy days

Ok old photo -_-

Yay 7 papers down!! Altho I left 4 more cox I took extra paper. Sounds pro but I'd feddup with accounts. I literally hope I can balanced everything in the exam. You know the worst feeling when you cant balanced them up, for those who taking accounts paper, are you on my bubbly side?

So today is the 22 rd of November, which is 11 days left till my exam ends. Omg can't wait for it, like I finally can back off myself from studies and books and studies and books. Sounds awesome yea?

Also, proudly announce that I got my L license today, which indicates that I can take my car exams after a month. So happy cox everything went smoothly like I passed my Undang with 42 question correct which only managed to met the passing marks. Told ya I am lucky one ^_^

One thing I'm looking forward the most is my next vacation to BKK with my family. Cox like: BKK man!!! Don't you girls love that?? An indeed shopping heaven for the girls filled with affordable and trendy stuff. I wouldn't say its cheap, cox the price somehow rise a bit compared to last time. But anyhow!! I still looking forward for it. Told my mum I not gonna bring any shirts there (except pjm -_-) cox I must leave my bag as empty as possible to fill in new stuff! Imagine how much I gonna spend there! Just thinking of it can make me feel so happy already hahaha. My mum also gonna go siao, she bought 20 kg luggage fees and she asked all of us to fill our hand carry bag with 7 kg(which is the max) new stuff. Ok mum u win.

Next!! I gonna dye my hair red after the exams. Initially I wan something light brown and pink which is kinda girlish but Mel was like: emmmm not bad. It means bad. Lolol. Then I saw Park bom previous red hair, which was really impressive 0.0 and chio. So then I cant make any decision, I asked a lot of my friends and my mum. Those un-chio and girlish friend asked me to pick the light brown one, but then I slowly lost my interest with it after a period probably becox I'm currently into chio mode. Not bragging myself that I'm chio, just that Im not in the girlish zone already. But fortunately, I have some chio-minded friends which encourage me to go red. Jill also picked the red one of course. She dyed red too but they dint turned any color out haha. I can now conclude that I will go red, cox soul mate like it on me too yayay.

For those friends who said red hair are ugly and lala please go kill yourself. You don't have any sense of chio-ness. If you dont like it please dont critic on what I like. That your durian point of view not mine ok? You know who you are. Thx for your advice. Still then, I will go lala. So sorry for disappointing you.

Talk about something happy, I'm gonna catch up Sg movies that I missed previously. Cox Mel wants to lend few series to me ^_^ Becox both of us share the same interest on a Sg actor which is REALLY REALLY CHIO. Btw forgot to mention that Mel likes chio things too. Also she major loves CL in 2ne1 and I like Parkbom. Not major like but still, admire. Basically becox they are CHIO enough. So movies please wait for me ok ^.^

Then I also wanna shop with my girls after the exams. Of course with the girls who share chio thought too hahaha. And also, buy some books to read. D.I.Y new accessory and my mum gonna teach me how to make skirts. She's a pro tailor. 0.0  Then some catch up season with my bff. Make some plans for further studies. Perhaps clean up my wardrobe for more new stuff. Look for new laptop probably? *grins* Maybe go for a swim and hit some gym since I have forgotten the last time I sweat :( Many many more plans that I wish to carry out and I hope I can do all of them. ^.^

No doubt,the event that I can't wait THE MOST is certainly Ben gorgor's wedding. Omg I love love love when all of my family gathered together and this time, I'm sure the crowd of my family gotta be big. I love that how happy my family are when we get to spend together. Everyone gonna look pretty, smart handsome and happy. The atmosphere of the house gonna be great and full of love. Ok thinking of this has already melts my heart. I LOVE MY BIG FAMILY. LOVES LOVES LOVES. :*

Ok damn this post is basically about the plans I wish to carry out after the exams. Im afraid if I feel boring during my holidays then I could have scroll my own blog spot to see the activities that I thought I could carry out. In case I get too excited and forgotten fml. -_-

So good luck and word hard Chen Yi. Free days are getting nearer yay ^.^

Helpless bitch.

8 more days left till my next papers, which most of them are elective papers, or to say ALL -_- Still I don't know why I'm here. Its the final lap for physics and biology, I can't afford to lose but I hardly fight in this battle. Ohmaigod sigh x1000

I'd always dream to get 11 A+ in my SPM. Imagining the moment where the headmistress announce my name on the stage, then everyone try to search for me. I stood frozen with my face white as sheet and hardly let out a scream. Next I restore my memory and run towards the stage, everyone has their glance on me. I shout. I received my slip and check through to ensure again. The chairman shake his hand with me, we took photo on the stage. Every one clap. I phone my mum and they announce my soul mate's name at next. This would be the best moment in my life. 

Ya, back to reality, I was just day-dreaming.

I'd actually dream to end my school life instead to end my SPM. I desperate want to leave my school. DESPERATE. 

"I know everyone's telling me how I'd regret it when I proceed on to college, like how I'll actually look back, reminisce and miss the past. But nevertheless, I'm pretty sure that's one thing that will definitely not happen to me." Naomi said this which I strongly agree. It wouldn't EVER happened to me. 

If you think I'm cruel or not humane at all, kindly exit, you know the door.

No lahhhhhh kidding.

The reason why I'm so desperate to leave, is because I know I really need a chance to turn over, into a new leaf. I know I made so much mistake previously which I tend to hate a lot of people in short period after i get along with them. I don't know what's wrong, these feelings just came up to me naturally.

Probably because I'm pessimistic enough to always look at one's weaknesses instead of their forte. chao. I'm super aware at people who throw their stares at me and even after they walk passed me, I turned over and I saw them whispering like they are picking on me, perhaps not.

Of course to this problem I've try my utmost best to find the solutions, but no matter how much I work on it, I just can't help but feel that way. It's hurts somehow, but I couldn't help. Sensitive bitch -_-

I talked. I talked to my soul mate, I talked to my mum, I talked to Lisa, I talked to Audrey.

Then my soul mate happened to ask me if I am so free to know whether people are bitching about me. Hahaha. Ok maybe yes I'm free. Then she asked me why I care? 0.0 WHAII U CARE?! Seriously? When you come to realized people bitched about you, you won't care meh? Ok mature lvl 934759686312. # win

People probably asked me not to be so sensitive. Yes Oh my god if I could help with myself I wouldn't talk to you, I need solutions.

So Audrey came up with this: "Life is too busy to control ppl's mouth n start war, I got other stuff to do. Skip these ppl" Like she's super busy for her life hahaha.

She said be nice to everyone, but definitely not give in trust. Then she came up with another: "trust is expensive, dun expect it from cheap ppl" #Principal of life

Lisa was more exaggerating. She used an annoying accent + broken english to ask me: Ey you Sg. Petani people are all so childish one meh?
I: Haih you don't understand people here.
Lisa: Ey you don't say people lo, you also sp lang (sp people) oh.

At the end we both ended up arguing whether I should be classified as Penang people or Sp people. #Shallow bitch. Cox I'm born in Penang, just that I'm brought up here. Well I always denied that I'm Sp people. No way, people here are horrible shitty durians.

I learnt from mistake, learn from critics, I'd judge less but I CAN'T CHANGE THE CIRCUMSTANCE.
So the best way I'd think to deal with it is probably leaving my current school and start another life. No please. I won't miss anyone out there cause you guys'd made my life miserable. I know all these happened because of my own cogitation but the miserable things are all came from those school mate. Don't ask me to ponder if I live my life as usual without causing any altercation by then my life would be awesome. No such thing. Living with you these naive people for 5 years were so f'in terrifying that made me so desperate wanted to leave as fast as possible.

I don't even know saying out these at here is right or not but I just want to share my own objection, towards those people.

And well, this goes saying without my friends around. Of course I have heartfelt friend who genuinely care for me, hand over me tissues while I was crying, talked to me when I felt helpless, lent me their hand when I was sick, made idiots shit jokes when I was emo, hugged me when I went through heart break... all sort of nice people I met. But still, the voracious me with pessimistic thought can't even balanced up the amount of kind people around me. Idiot bitch.

Actually I'd love everyone around me. I hate quite less. Erm recalling back... I mostly dislike people. Ok maybe when I was young I (actually we) argued quite a lot with our friends and we ended up hating one another but still then, I forgave them (I don't know they got forgive me or not -_-) and I hate no one. Except some holy daughter of an orange or holy son of a durians who I stated above where they made my life miserable. I guess that's all.

Frankly speaking, a lot of people who got along with me in short period compliment me that I'm friendly and I laughed a lot. They said I'm easy to get along with and claimed that they feel free when they talked with me.   Lol. #humble brag -_- I don't know I am empowered with such force thanks God.

Also some said I look cute when I laughed.

I should translate what they mean for you. I used to made idiot shit jokes and laughed at my own jokes but most of the time my jokes are not funny at all. They probably felt I'm stupid but instead of stricture me they replace it with the word CUTE. I know right. -_-

So somehow I indistinct with my own personality. I don't know whether most of the people like me or dislike me. Anyhow, I still hope I reflect on myself so that I will meet nice people and meet less brawl in future time. I should appreciate what I've given instead of hating what terrible things I've encounter. Also, I have to learn cope with people. Social skills-less bitch.

Enough with words, should have back to books to kill some brain cells. Xo <3 nbsp="nbsp">

HOLYSHITSPM

I DON'T KNOW WHY AM I HERE TYPING SHITTING THING
cox tmrw is SPM which means those thing I've studied from Form 1 till Form 5 are gonna be examine.

OMGGGGGGGG. CAN'T BELIEVE X.X

That's all for today's post wtf. Wish me luck -_-

Ok my luck used to follow me in every exam since I was born so I supposed they gonna follow me too.
Hi LUCK we should be friend ^.^ Or you could probably be my shadow lol

Harsh twitter

This prove that making small mistake make you not a human.
By small mistake it literally means you forgotten your TWITTER PASSWORD wtf. -_-

actually i forgotten my username instead of password wtf x2 -_-

Ok I'm not human cox I forgotten my password. And I don't even type the two words correctly cox I din't even bothered. wtf x3