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I hate thinking of title cox it's so effing hard. Please fill it in yourself by using your imagination after reading this thanks.

Another thing I have in me is I hate rotting at home, like now. This weather is so damn hell killing and I still din't managed to get my license yet. I was told that JPJ closed on Saturday and Sunday, yet my agent just passed me my test card yesterday. I seriously want to go out and chill rather than staying at home facing my computer, since I've taken my 3 hours nap.

I really have nothing to do nowadays except going to work and playing with my dogs ... and also watch Running man LOL. I've also done buying all new clothes back in December cox I went to Bkk so now even if I went shopping, I basically just chill, walk around and looking for new shoes. I tell you I'll never stop buying shoes cox I hate the moment when I got unsatisfied with my shoes color, so damn annoying. Even I've  already more than 20 shoes I still won't stop buying new shoes. I'll never get enough with shoes.

Speaking about this, there's one thing came across my mind yesterday night, I hope to buy the F21 stores in future if I'm rich enough. F21 is just simply ... amazing.

OK now some quick updates with photos. I'm bored with words already wtf lol.

Somehow my dog got this super pity + naive face like every night when I went to say good night to her she stared pitifully at me, I feel so wrong for letting her to sleep alone. 

  

Random flowers and rubbish behind lolol.

Wah this face look so damn disdusting without make up I self see also want puke already. Why I look so young *ahemm* childish actually in this photo. 

Nikita came over my house back in November I think so we took damn lot of photos. Wtf initially I pinned up my fringe one, then this Niki showed off her long fringe she said: "Che che SEEE *showing her fringe* My hair longer than you. Haha. " Wah I got teased so I put it down then I said: "YOU SEEEE. Che che also got what. Hehe. " So we end up taking resemble photos lolol.

My family and I on a vacation to Cameron Highland to chill and enjoy the weather there during my trial exam. Hahaha I'm probably the chio-est student who still go for a vacation during exam.



Taadaa. We're at the border of Perak and Pahang. Feel so refreshing and I love the breeze in the jungle I want to go again like nowwww. Here's lack of oxygen. T___T

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OK so now I'm gonna post the photo I took on the graduation day. WTF I just checked my camera album and found out so many people (friends la actually, I got mad so I called them people) used my camera to capture photos. Seriously wtf, damn you all these people so damn thick-faces one ah? Use people camera also don't need ask one? Rude. If you tell me you don't have camera and you ask me to lend you I'll surely do. But you have to ask. No manners one seriously. No wonder before I headed back home some of them keep on asking me MUST MUST MUST post ALL PHOTOS on facebook. Wah bui pai seh x2. I'm not gonna post it forever. So damn er xin seeing my album without my face. (Not I bothered about this ah but I cannot tolerate with no mannered people.)

Another thing reminded me, I MUST MUST MUST complain hor. There's a person (classmate) so damn bui paiseh x1000. Thinking of it now still make my fire so big ah damnit.

Some of my friends randomly asked me to capture a photo for them, I agreed so this person came and offered to hold my camera. Wah I think she so damn kind I said thank you.

So after I took photos for others I saw one friend passed by and I want to have a photo with him/her so I quickly ran to that girl to get my camera, I SAW SHE ASKED OTHER PEOPLE TO TAKE PHOTOS of SHE AND HER FRIEND, WITH MY CAMERA. Right at the moment I just wanted to get my camera asap before my friend walked away, so I din't bothered too much, just went and said: "Quick my camera please *they was halfway taking photo*, QUICK CAMERA CAMERA."

Then you know she gave me what face or not?

*Damn it you think this camera is yours ah? You never see I'm halfway taking photo is it? Wait awhile can die ah? Selfish people* FACE.

I interpreted myself. Genius, Chen Yi.

WAH SERIOUSLY DAMN FUCKED UP. YES I OWNED THIS CAMERA. If not you think what? Yours ah? Lending you is my responsibility ah? If this happened to my sister like she took my things without my permission I'll also scold her one ok! You think what? I very kind you can bully me ah? As far as I know she owned a camera but she didn't wanted to bring it I guess because she scared she lost it. Maybe she thought it's heavy or she probably just want to save her camera battery, who knows? No manners. I didn't bothered much that time, but now thinking of it @#$%^&*()#$%^&* I don't want say already.

If you know who you are or you are reading this I hope you reflect yourself ok? I hope you'll have a better life in future with good attitude and I hope you'll be a well-mannered person when I saw you in future. I also want to thank you for portraying this action so I learnt to be more well-mannered to others in future. Thank you.

So now I'll start the photo speaking section. Yea you'll get to see my bare face. If you're now thank for this then, yes, you're welcome.  

With cutie pie Wan Joe. Lolol we sneak one on the ceremony and Hii we love Tiffany hehee. ^_^

My soul mate number 154489890023437. So apparently just an ugly girl that I can without in the world. 

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Everything state above are cheat one, get it right, another side. Love x.x

Next I took a photo with a passer-by who help me to capture a photo JUST TO THANK HER AND LET HER FEEL LESS AWKWARD.  

Ok joking cox if she see this she's gonna kill me. It's not ok at all cox my face look uglier than hers. Couldn't be. Hahaha I love you too :DD

Sorry I've forgotten the name of this bui paiseh guy who photo-boomed us. Hahaha. Erm a second ago I just recalled his name lolol. Shun Yao. 

Lolol right now I'd just realized this funniest guy Zheng Zheng grew so tall already 0.0 

What izz up with my disgusted fringe that fall off?!!

Wah King Scout took a photo with me. Quick everyone, round of applause!!! In fact the guy who slept most in class. MOST, so round of applause again! :p

One with this pretty Han. Haha my skin flawless leh? =DD Non-edited one. Say you envy lah. :p

Thank you for being a nice table mate. Thank you for your somehow unfunny but still laughable jokes. Thank you for buying everyone nasi lemak and even carried those heavy packet of nasi lemak up to the third floor without a murmur. Thank you for explaining the theory of how insect moves with their longitudinal muscle and circular muscle. Thank you for the tips for exam. Thank you for teaching me to work with smart phone and computer (I damn suck at it). Thank you for jio-ed me to play dota and left four dead (refused tho I told you all I love Counter Strike what :p) Thank you for being an awesome and helpful friend. Thank you. :DD

LOL why this fallen off-fringe still never got back into position one? I said Get back now! Haha. Wah this guy damn wei da one, thank you for your ears, thank you listening the most annoying crying sound even you have phobia with it. So now phobia solved lah. See I damn kind right? :p

Don't know what's wrong with those people who like to photo-boomed a nice photo and ruined it.

Favorite guy on earth. Hahaha no lah. Best friend who shared the Fifa world cup fever back in 2012, and also the steady-est guy in the world haha, I'm grateful to have this friend around. Thank you.

YOU SEE THIS SRI PHOTO-BOOMED AGAIN. LOL. With Alan, also helpful and fun guy, my bus mate!

Bus mate 2. I tell you what, all these guys are the funniest person on Earth where they make me laughed the most at every moment we spent together. The left guy leh always talked about yellow stuff when we're young haha, the right Indian is a big fans of MU who has all time enthusiasm to football. 

I miss those time we spent on bus especially when we're so young, we sang, danced, fighted and poured water to an Indian girl hahaha. They also watched AV in the bus last time, once they showed me, and that was the first and only time I saw these stuff, sounds memorable lol. Everyone in my bus were just awesome shit jokers that make my day after every stressful school day. They once sang birthday song for me, like in 3/4 language on my 14th birthday. I'll remembered it forever, Thank you everyone.

Actually I want to put this photo as the last one cox people said: Hoh Liao Tim Deh (in Hokkien), if you know what I meant. Stepping into the 12th years of friendship, 8 years of classmate and maybe the same college again. Thank you for being a faithful friend and a good listener all the time. Thanks for being there for me. Thank you for the trust and faith you have within us. Thank you for everything even you've done nothing. I hope you have a brighter future and please, get on the track. Don't ever stuck on relationship problem, they're just young love. Keep fighting, you have my back. Sorry for annoying you all the time because this is what best friend is for ^_^ I'm thankful to have this friend around but Buddha I'm bored of this face already, are You trying to tell me this is a fated relationship? :p 

Then my all time BFF and part time gf. Haha things we do while we're young. Thank you for everything and even thankful for knowing his mum cox his mum is like the kindest person on Earth, I've learnt something from her. 

I told her BFF must be special so we took 2 photos hahaha. Special or not? =D

This photo-boomed Shun Yao which I just recalled his name few minutes ago. He's a God damn genius lol good luck in your future.

Another God damn genius classmate Swee Ying. I think she damn selfish cox she every time get number one in exams, never give people chances one lor. I also want to get number 1 ma. :p

My BBBBBBBBBBBBBBBF. See this pose also know our friendship not easy leh? =D Thank you so much for having this friend in my life. See you in a bit ^_^

Hahaha this one is also 12 yrs of friendship and more than 5 yrs of classmate and even our name has the same pronounce. Zheng Yi versus Chen Yi. Haha damn hate to be in the same class with him cox those teacher always messed up our name, like every time the teacher called, then people have to ask the girl or the guy one. 

Then Idk why I look so exhausted T__T With Pei Fen, she got a lot of hidden potential one. Few people know she actually gossips too haha.

Wahh this girl I damn love her smiley face one, like her smile so sweet can brighten everyone's day.

With the cute guy haha. Thank you for being a nice, kind and generous time. Also, thank you for passing me some driving skills the other day and I passed my car test. ^_^ Deng deng deng round of applause please. ^_^

I'll never managed to take proper photo with this girl so here's the properest one. Thank you too, for being helpful, if you want me to say you cute then you please.. wait long long. Haha I love you lah mwahh :* 

With our future doctor, Zi Chee, but sorry no claps cox she wants to take photo with me one. I'm not keen also. Haha kidding. Lol I can't think of anything to thank her lah cox her attitude is like ...... I hope you reflect a bit lo. But still thank you for requesting a photo I feel like a star hahah. No lah just joking. I'm hope you become a better person and portray good attitude to everyone around you, looking forward upon your success. =) 

(Sorry if I sounded mean)

When pretty and intelligence comes together it spells Wuan Chien. A generous friend who shares ideas and taught me a lot. I'm grateful to have you.

We took photo twice becox I told her my left profile looks slimmer wtf -_- Anyway I guess everyone knows this girl, she's like a dream girl to every guy. I secretly asked my classmate which girl they desire most and almost everyone voted her. How come there's a person with intelligence (always got number 2 in exams, plus our class is first class,we got a lot of God damn genius one) + pretty (you see her face) + good in sport (800m, 4 x 100m, 4 x 200m, long jump, marathon, badminton all got medals one if I'm not mistaken) + shows leadership qualities in school association & clubs + calligraphy high ranking in Malaysia + shows all good attitudes & probably kindest person in the class. This girl so perfect also no flaws in her life you say la if you're a man won't you love her?!! I'll certainly do with no doubt. But she's my boyfwen already so you all get off :p

Hi, my tuition mate Chia Ying. Thanks for your comforting and cares so so so much, I'm so thankful and I love you. =*

Hi bus mate. Please refer to above gratitude, but still thank you for making jokes and laughter. =DD 

My forever angel. I'll love her until the day I die. Thank you for being there and you know how much I love you? Damn that's too lot to bear :p

A very nice and friendly tuition mate, Yee Zheng. Thank you for being my friend. =D

Also one of the 12 yrs friendship. He's a kind and friendly guy, I hope to see you doing good in future. Thank you so much as a friend. =D

HAHAHAHAHA this damn er xin guy holding my graduation cert he's only 15 yro this year. He's one of xiao bobo best friends and I find them cute and funny hehe. Love all of them I hope they'll stop playing online games (I knw it's impossibruuuu) and wish all the best in their PMR. Jiayou I support you guys.

With my favorite teacher, Pn, Esther who taught us so many things and spend so much effort on us in order for us to score better in SPM. She also made us speak in English with our classmate and spent time teaching us what to do on an interview. Thank you teacher, I love you mwahhh. You're the best ^__^

Then I also took one with Martin's gf, omg so shy x.x

Nothing just find the girl on the left hand side look disgusting with her awkward smile.....

No lah joking hahahahaha.

Yes peace I love you, friends forever ^_^

Ok I'm gross cox no one would use this friend forever anymore. 

k thx bye :p

10 super wtf moment

... that I'd encountered lately.

Scenario 1:
So on the solstice festival my coach went over our house to have supper together. We happened to had KFC omg so fatsss. At the moment we were discussing about a weird custom that nowadays wedding couple have had.

Coach: Do you guys know that a new custom is now spreading on facebook about how the wedding couple invite friends/family to their wedding dinner?

All: Don't knw.

Coach: Basically it's like a wedding package, something like the couple fix the amount of angpao. 
If u give RM 100 then u go their wedding, you only got to drink water, no food not even chair. If u give RM 500, you got to eat lousy food. If u give RM 1000, then you can eat better food.
If u give RM 10000 then u can give name to their first child. 0.0

We laughed. He hereafter continued: If I'm rich enough I confirmed used RM 10000 to throw him then I named his child.If his surname is 刘 then I'll named his child 月经. If his surname is 马 I'll named the child 屁精. 

If you get what he meant lollll.

Scenario 2:
My dog was having her nap right in front of my main door. I saw my little sister stared at her with a satisfying smile so I went approached. She quickly stopped me and warned: "Shhh she's sleeping soundly." I mischievously went on and yelled: "Weihhh wake uppppp!" My dog woke, and my sister replied: "Yea 没事了 you can now have your nap back."

Wtf my dog knows human language?

Scenario 3:
I was ironing clothes without switching on the air-cond. In that case I was frustrated with the temperature around so I murmured: "Wtf is wrong with this weather?"
My mum replied: "In this hot weather I supposed you should have a bottle of........"
Me: "ALCOHOL?! =DDDDDD!!!" (I took wine cooler basically)
Mum: “No, it's chicken essence.”
Me: "Damn it mom. "
What the hell the chicken essence to do with the hot weather. So unrelated zzzzz

Scenario 4:
Someone texted me without mentioning his name on the new year eve but I'd never noticed. One random day I saw it back so I replied: Who are you? He replied: Sri, the next MU player. wtf totally spoil the market hahahahhaa

Scenario 5:
One of my friends went through a broke up with his girlfriend, he talked to me and hinted me that he wanted to commit suicide. I was so panic and completely freaked out, then I told xiao huai, the ultimate rational and coolest guy on earth, :"Omg my friend who just went thru a broke up hinted me that he wanted to commit suicide. Omg Huai please tell me what to do, I'm so tense now. TT" He replied (with typical broken Eng where we used to use) : haiyo commit suicide only ma you never seen meh? Ask him go ahead la if he dares to.

LOL wtf how he managed to stay cool all the time?

Scenario 6:
One day I was wearing shades with my bangs down in the mall. I show you the photo.

With the Playboy dress.

I supposed I looked really cool until...

my friend started to notice and told me: You act what cool? Can you please take it down? So I was like: Cannot. Please don't be bothered about me. She said: Hoohoo I know what's wrong already! You din't put on your make up!! Hahahahaha.
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There's an awkward silence around the crowd.
I whispered: Please la I got put on ok? Just too lazy for the eyes area. zzzz
She: You put wat?
I: Concealer la. Some more got lips gloss.
She: So shame to say you did.
I: You yelled so loud what face you also throw already la. Still shame for what?!!!!

WTF x5

Scenario 7:
I was ironing clothes AGAIN where I saw a pretty clothes with grey leopard prints on. I was thinking of asking my mum to give it to me but when I flip the logo, I saw hush puppy.

Ok I know, forget about it.

She then wore it and ended up that shirt was a little bit small for her. She passed it to me: "You want or not? I give it to you. New one." I was like: "Mom are you confirmed it fxxxkin Hush Puppy. 0.0"

She replied: This is one of the 60% discount item so I bought it. It's not over RM 50 so it's ok .... IF NOT YOU THOUGHT I WILLING AH?!!?!?!

Damn. Wtf is wrong with this.

Scenario 8:
I failed my car test few days back. It's seems so highly unlikely to happened to others, apparently a lot of people failed theirs' too. But I'm glad I'd make many friends there, like literally. So one of the Indian girls happened to sit beside me after our car test. Next to my bench.

After I ended my phone call with my friend, this girl turn back and we had an eye contact, so I smiled at her. She lips-synced to me: How was it? Is everything ok?
I lips-synced back: Noooooooo I failed. :/
She: Me too awwww

The second test came, before she got onto the car she kept on turning back to me to show how nervous she was. I plastered her a smile and lips-synced her that everything gonna be okay. So she got on the car. She was so damn nervous but I think she do quite ok after all.

After I did mine, I encountered her inside the office. She was like: Good? I said: Passed ^_^ I guess you too right? She said: Yeaayy. So are you coming on the 21st to sit for the ulangan? I nodded. She replied: See you very soon. Byee ^_^

We encountered twice, second time at the stationary shop. She went like: "Oh hii. See you very soon. :DDDDD "
She looks super ultimate happy because she found a friend who is as noob as her. Fine I'll take it.

WTF first time see people failed car test still can so happy one. I'm super impressed by the positive energy she sent to me. ^_^ Optimistic girl *.*

Scenario 9: 
I cannot explain how much I dislike friends who has their very own 'principle' and they thought everything they think, are all right, like literally. I can make friends with them, but to everything I nodded when they talked doesn't mean that I agreed with the facts, I'm just trying hard to accept.

One day this guy came to me and told me the reason I failed in life after he read my blog. I din't fail. I'm just finding the track to success. Ok since he's my friend, I accepted.

He told me the reason I failed in my life is because I scolded too much wtf. Hahaha. This sounds so damn wrong. Wtf is just a daily necessary word for me to complete my sentence. Idk when do I start having this disease within but I still think it's ok after all. Rather than scolding fuck you and oh my god. Oh my God is so damn rude, you everything happened also call God, you think He very free ar?

Ok below is the conversation between us:
" The key to your success is that you should stop scolding wtf. "
" Cannot one. It came out naturally. " (this one is just an excuse hahah wtf)
Then I think he felt quite mad + funny at the same time so he said: WTF is IT CAME OUT NATURALLY?!! (caps lock part means he talked quite loud haha)
I said: " See? Like this. "

Super wtf we both ended up laughing at him. Hahahaha.

Scenario 10: 
One random guy came and chat with me. Before he go he reminded me to drink more water.
I asked Audrey: "Do I look dehydrated? "
Audrey: "Hahahahhahaa maybe because you look hot."

Ok thanks for the compliment honey but this is so damn wtf funny. Hahahahahaha Do I? Wtfffff vain of course no lar hahahahha.


Thanks for reading my un-funny jokes and un-wtf wtf moment. Have a nice day :))

2012 reflections and 2013 resolutions

LIFE

which I've been through the past 12th months,

was most probably adventurous, exciting, and experiencing ever in my life.

And it's literally means I haven't been living in sucha life since I was born,

for the past 16 f'in yrs. 

It is almost the end of the year now and I think it's probably one of the best time to reflect myself, together with the bad attitude I possessed, the reason I lost and the root to the failure of my occurring problems. 

I don't know does it only me or everyone of you have one of those night staying alone in your room, started to feel lonely & not knowingly reminiscing the past, then slowly the teared up apart?

I DO.

And  that's why I came up with this.

Of course not to notify everyone that today is the end of year, everyone has their own calender. 

I reminisced what I've actually done over the year. Sadly, I have to say,

I DONE NOTHING.

Not studying hard, keeping neither friendship nor relationship ends, potrayed bad attitudes and even disappointing everyone around me, especially my parents.

Basically, the less distress part of this year is that I'd been in the same class as my previous year classmate, which I got a little bit overwhelmed with joys. I HATE how I need to merged myself into a new circumstance, like after I worked for a year (when i was 16th), I finally got REALLY along with my new classmates, they are just awesome. But it's not about the hard work are paid off, it's like how I get stress-less for figuring how should I greet, smile, and initiate a conversation with people. It might seem easy for others, but definitely not on me. 

I still remembered the first day I went to school, I saw everyone plastered their smile and I have the most welcomed greet. Skipping the class part, this year has probably be the most suffering year for all the SPM students, like how much pressure we were receiving from everyone and I felt like I'm being pulled in all direction. Everyone goes like: it's about your future man! Hard work would paid off!

Yea I bet it does but I never tried.

Cox it's like what I have told earlier, luck has always been my side.

Also, I felt in love in this year like after being single for more than 2 years. I thought I shouldn't get involve in any relationship since it's my final year and I have to work hard. But making an irrational choice, I couldn't help with it. Not because how attractive my ex was, please people -_- Like you know when you got amazed by someone (ok lar not so amazed), something like attracted and crush on, you probably won't easily lost the chance for falling in love. OK maybe just me -_-

I don't know what's wrong with both of us in the end, we both just ended up without reason. I meant HE ENDED UP without reason. The biggest problem among us was mainly the distance we had and we met less. But in the end of the day we ended up without any sign of notification, neither in the fading of love nor the TREMENDOUS distance that he finally realized we had between us. Super wtf haha

I'm not blaming anyone out there because I had really reflected on what's actually wrong with me to make him thought of splitting with me. As Max said, realizing the distance we had shouldn't had happened after we had been together for almost half a year. I know that failing a relationship is affirmatively the fault on both side, I really got it. Of course I don't want it to happened to be the same reason of the next break up, so I took time to heal and be conscious of my own fault. Don't tell me I din't did any, I'm sure I somehow do.

Of course I have a lot of sleepless night, thinking of how I should wake myself up throughout the days after. How should I actually go through everything without accompany, like I thought there'll be no sunshine if I lost him. Fortunately, the Sun still shines. So I thought I could actually walked out from the pain and live another life. And I did. It's not as hard as people used to thought. 

Now that I got really over with love, with guys. Stop it. Guys out there, stop being sweet to me if you know I'm not keen to have a relationship with you. I'm sorry but I'm probably still, too young for love. I somehow hope that my best friend fall for me or vice versa because I need a guy who know me well. This is the level of maturity in me, wanting a best friend as a bf. So I conclude it as, young love.

This year, I also have been losing some friends. Right after I thought I have already walked out from the pain but I din't somehow, I don't know whether is the hormones killing or the brain juice decides to went wrong I have quite an insane moment which I nearly went crazy. 

I thought I've the most happiest moment when I lost in love is that I spent more with my friends. But the more I spent, the more I realized the darkest side of everyone. I realized the people who approached me, have really bad intentions. Because I possessed my worst weakness that I rarely reject people to do certain things for them even I was obliged to. And so everyone took for granted of it. 

When you stopped being generous for offering things, all the sucks thing came up like no one wants to be your friend anymore.

YOU WORTH FOR NO VALUE OTHER THAN WORKING FOR THEM.

In order to pick either one as I would willingly do, I choose to give up on skin deep-friendship. 

No pros, no cons. Just less friends around. It's really sucks.

I don't know whether I sound like bragging, it's just the true feeling where I somehow got it when I was alone.

I stopped putting endless effort on those friends, they realized and of course they quit. Who doesn't? It shows how unappreciative of them, every single them, who literally forgotten the amount of effort I put in them, either in our friendship. 

I'm not blaming, I'm not hoping any karma will hit or what ever thing that will happened to them. I don't hate, I really din't. I realized hating is also a partial effort that you have to put in someone, the moment I decided to give up, I surely won't be giving any damn to everything happened out there, don't even hope for a single fuck. Not to say I want to make you guys life as miserable as possible, but I'm sorry, I really just don't bothered what were you guys bitching about my life, because it sounds like my life are wonderful than yours, so why should I give a damn? And please. I can't be fucked up with those words you guys used to insult me, and I shouldn't. If I make myself being fucked up so easily, what then make the difference between us?

This is the year, probably, the year I gain most haters, mainly because my hormones went wrong. Hahaha. Just kidding. I guess partially is because the tension that I've receive in all sites, still keeping myself on the wrong track and I can't get it right. In this distress position, I might suffer in balancing my own emotion, making it the biggest reason that lost friends.

I admit everything happened because of me cox I'm not going to throw shit on other people for blaming them. No point.

Another reason is because I start to party. Then people go like: Ohhh no PARTY GIRLS ARE SLUTS. Oh my are you kidding me? Yea right I supposed those celebrity that used to party are sluts too. Katy Perry is a slut, Miley Cyrus is a slut, even Vanessa Hudgens is a slut. Oh my God such a slutty world. So you happy? Calling everyone slut does make you feel like you're super pure and cute? Yes I'm a slut you're a virgin. What ever -_- I don't give a damn. If you hate, keep on hating. Perhaps the negative energy you sent me has partially converted into the source of energy for me to improve in advance and I supposed the constructive idea that you guys has render has made me changed a lot, in either behavior or temperament. Aww so kind of you. Thank you. ^_^

The past 12 months, I haven't been study like really really hard. But then I make no regret cox at least I paid hard work, and hard work paid a little off. As I know how much work that I paid, and surely the amount that will be paying back won't be any big one. Nevertheless, I studied in a environment which not much pressure has exerted in it (I mean during SPM) as my parents know my ability the most, and how much I should and I would achieve. Thank you for trusting you daughter and unwind the overwhelming force I got from other medium.

Also thanks to all parties who willingly brought me up upon the success, especially my English teachers in CES who take every students to their heart, educate us with passion and patient, to become a student that can speak so fluent in English, I can see people around me are growing with English, especially me, who have the guts to speak in front of people, debate in English, and even explain an article by using English. I see myself growing in this period, fighting against the nerves and standing out with courage. Perhaps I can achieve more in future. Thank you everyone that has put their effort to bring me up till today.

There's a period when I felt extremely happy and some of those days like I'm a little bit overwhelmed with joys. The moment I felt everything on the earth are made for me, the people around me, the joys I had with those people, the things I own, the love I receive from everyone... etc.

But it never last, never. Cheat one.

Till then I hit the bottom rock like I went through a lot of sucks thing without noticing they were hurting more and more each time they hit. The hurts I bare slowly accumulate until it became kind of thrombosis? ok lol at this cox this is like the only thing I remember about biology.

Next then I saw a book, with a title like: WHEN YOU HIT THE BOTTOM ROCK, THE ONLY THING TO DO IS UP. (Idk am I right cox I got super lousy memory)

Pretty inspiring one I supposed. Altho it's like quite lame but this is the only solution doesn't it? & so when you got zero solution, I bet you'll try out. SO I WENT UP. I don't know where supposed to be the RIGHT direction I just simply WENT UP.

Of course in the journey of up you have to pay in your trust together with your faith. Who doesn't got heart broken moment? Who doesn't met the wrong person before they got to settled down? Who doesn't fell off from the track before they reach the destination? Who doesn't made the wrong choice when they seek in opportunity? But I'm sorry, successful people went through everything we can't bare. That's why they are SUCCESS. Get it? Got it. Good.

So basically I think I'm now somewhere is the middle of my journey la. If you think you are my friend please carry me up, if you think you are hater pigs I hope you can pull me down. By that I also can witness my own strength ma hahaha. But I'm afraid you can't unless you want to show how lousy you are hahaha. ok lame wtf.

Thank you. I'm truly thankful for everyone who decided either to pick me up or to climb together with me. Especially my soul mate no.1, I know she won't be reading this but still! Thank you baby. Thank you for all the pillow talks and everything that you have done, to make my day better by telling me you love me. I don't know the amount of love I received got exceed your bf's or not but I still love you maxxxx.

Thank you to everyone lend me a hand. Thank you for your compliment during the year 2012. In return to the efforts you put into me, here's my resolutions for 2013:

1 : KILL THE TEMPER

I know everyone has a very hard time to tolerate with my bad tempered, cause it went really wrong at times. Even my mum hates me for that. Cox I'm like the King of the world, I do what ever I want. I hate un-requested comments. I hate opposite opinions. I think I'm right all the time. Now that I realize I'm wrong for that, so chill, and kill. Thank you.

2 : IF GETTING A CAR LICENSE COUNTED AS A RESOLUTION.

Then this will be the second. I don't know is this one counted cox just now when I was chatting with Ng Jie I asked him what's his resolutions he replied this. I guessed it's counted, so best of luck Chen Yi ^_^

3 : READ MORE BOOKS

This one confirm is cheat one because I have tons of books in the shelves that I never even keen to throw a sight. But I hope I can study harder than last year, improve my Chinese and English too. Read more newspaper so that I'm always inform with the latest news.

4. STOP BEING EDUCATED FOOLS

What's educated fools? It's us. If you watched Dee Kosh's videos, you would probably know this. We are so highly educated and we have every info with us like wikipedia, google, bings and all the website which are really useful to us but instead of getting the information on these website, we rather surf facebook. For me facebook is like the useless social network ever, but I can't help with it, because I have a number of friends which we only keep in touch in social network, some are like really anti-social, idk what's wrong with them, but I will try to reduce the time I spend online and make it useful. In the other hand I'll also try to use the internet wisely. (IF I COULD)

5. NEVER FALL IN LOVE

By that I don't mean that I can never get into a relationship. Just not FALL INTO it. I have to chill and WALK in. Does that sounds cool? Chill and walk in. LOL. Take love easy, that's all I want. Because life is so meaningful other than waiting your girlfriend to reply your text. Guys do you get it? You can go like watch movie, share the house chores with your mum, play basketball, football, volleyball, hangout with your friends, just not WAITS FOR YOUR GF TEXT or STARING FB NEWS FEED, please. Take it easy. If you love, give spaces to breathe. Anyway, make it slow and steady, I would love to learn more things and gain more experience first, before I got into a relationship. Like I'm stated above, I'm too young for love. If only if I met someone who really cares for me, I would consider, just a little bit.


OK I guess that's all for now that I can figured them out. So byeee. Thank you for being patient. I love you guys. :*